Back in 2016, I fell into a plummet of self loathing and depression. Blame it on the weather, blame it on the fact that I managed to lose contact with about half of my friends in a matter of months. But whatever the reason, my safety blanket was food. And a lot of it.
Everyone has their own way’s of dealing with sadness. Some people resort to a glass of wine, perhaps a bottle (which I wouldn’t recommend), other’s may have multiple partners to fill a void through sexual ventures. Mine, was to eat as much food as I physically could. After a while, I just enjoyed the actual feeling of chewing and tasting and learned to ignore that stretching feeling I had in my stomach that told me I was full. It was like an addiction to any sugary foods and drinks. I could hear that tiny voice telling me that I’m not hungry but it just wasn’t loud enough.
Fast forward to 2 months later, it’s January 2017. I’m 13 and a half stone with a body fat percentage of 41%. Now to put that into perspective, I am 5ft 5 and usually weigh between 10.5 to 11 stone with a body fat percentage of 25 to 29%. It wasn’t the weight that bothered me the most, I’ve always been a heavy person. It was the body fat percentage increase in such a short amount of time that made me realise that I was on the start path to obesity.
I immediately went home and googled ‘2 week diet’ and ‘how to lose weight fast’. I got so desperate I even looked up ‘how long can someone go without eating?’ (That one was a very low point of my insecurity of my body image) But then some fitness model’s Instagram post came up and it was a picture of a before and after with a 12 month gap in-between the two images. The before picture was very similar to how I looked then and then the after image was a woman who was pure curve and muscle. She was defined and toned. She had an amazing figure and in the caption she wrote: “This body was not made through starving myself. It was made through early mornings and early nights, heavy lifting and clean eating and it has taken me 12 months to finally say that I have reached my goal. Rome wasn’t built in a day. So don’t expect results in a day either.”
The next day I joined the gym and cut out all sugary foods and high fatty foods. The start was the hardest. I was SO hungry. All the time. I would eat cucumber sticks and some hummus or an apple or a quinoa salad with chicken and I would still be craving those croissants or chocolate bars and deep fried foods afterwards. I had a void to fill and healthy food just wasn’t cutting it.
It was about two weeks down the line when I finally started getting used to my new regime. Watching my boyfriend stuff his face in mcdonald’s whilst I grabbed a salad from Subway was less painful. I could proudly walk past the biscuit isle in Tesco on my weekly shop. I managed to save money from not ordering takeaway every night. I learned how to cook in new ways and it encouraged me to be more creative with my food and make the healthy food taste better than having the bland cliche grilled chicken
and lettuce salad. Because after a while, you will want anything BUT grilled chicken and salad. Trust me. That shit gets old very fast.
I went to every different type of gym class they provided at my gym and found the one I loved with was Indoor cycling. Also known as Spin classes. I went to about 4 spin classes a week which was 30 to 45 minutes long per class and then I also did weight lifts and circuit training 3 times a week which were about 30 minutes long each time. Over all I would be going to the gym 4 days a week and spending about and hour to an hour and a half there. Again, it was tough but I kept on telling myself.. Rome wasn’t built in a day.
What I learned from this weight loss journey is that nothing is easy. Especially when it comes to changing the way your body is shaped. Look at it like a way a sculpture makes a work of art. They can’t rush the process, it takes time, patience, self motivation and determination. You can’t expect to just eat a salad for lunch and then congratulate yourself with a chocolate bar and a milkshake. NO. It doesn’t work like that. Trust me, I’m speaking through trial and error.
So here I am. 4 months down the line with a flat stomach and a big confidence boost. I’ve enjoyed this journey so much that I’ve now set a harder goal that’ll probably take me another 6 months but I’m gonna give myself a well earned break for the Christmas holidays and start the intense training and dieting back up again in January.
Moral of the story is if you’re trying to lose weight. The ‘get results fast’ diets are a temporary fix. You’ll get the results you want for a few days sure… but then you’ll go back to eating what you want and not exercising enough and then boom. You’ll put the weight back on and you’ll have to start all over again. I say this from experience. It’s such a hard thing to hear when you know that the FAD diets work but the are not a permanent weight loss solution unless you wanna be sipping diet shakes your whole life.
The only way to get the results you desire is to be realistic with your goals and have patience and trust in your body.
Rome wasn’t built in a day.